I cannot believe that this baby could come any day now. Part of me feels like I am just so ready to be done pregnancy so 'bring it on' but the other part of me, probably the bigger part of me, is very anxious about this go-around. Will this labor experience be everything I'm hoping that the last one was not? Will I have thyroid issues again? How will Silas do with a new little warm body around the house all the time?
I also cannot believe that we will no longer be a family of 3- but 4! That means two carseats, a double stroller, two little mouths to feed, 2 bums to clean, are we ready? Like last time, is there anything that could possibly make you ready for a change like this?
I feel very unsettled as the day approaches. I have work shifts yet to complete and furniture yet to buy, cupboards to organize, and Christmas to plan (yeah right). I guess in some ways that's better than 'sitting around' on my thumbs waiting for the baby to come. How to spend these last days?
Lord prepare me in the ways I cannot, give me peace to cover my anxieties over things I cannot control anyways, and fill me with all I will need to be a mom all over again!
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